Nostalgia. It's one of those feelings where you're not sure if it's from God or not. At first it's a really good feeling, especially if you have a vivid memory and can easily slip into the realm of your mind. The laughs, warm-happy fuzzy feelings you get throughout your whole body triggers so many memories and so many emotions attached to those memories. Once the sequential timeline of your memory elapses to the moment of parting, saying good-bye, pain, etc..., the emotions jack-up a notch higher into the tier 'take caution' because you might shed a tear or two. Now you're probably convinced that this is an attack from the devil because suddenly you feel like crap. You hate your mind for bringing you thus far in your current condition, because you know the purpose for your life here at this moment at this place was God-sent and a great destiny awaits in you, YET these nagging, actually stabbing thoughts of the past punctures rude questions all over your mind asking stupid questions like "what if", and slowly whether you begin to notice it or not, your mind is deflated of all hope and optimism and perhaps this is what being 'emo' really means. As Deborah Kwon puts it, "don't we all want to punch Nostalgia in the stomach?" For me, I won't go so far, I just want to slip into the memories that Nostalgia brings up in my mind and make them come to life even if it's for a few seconds.
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