CRY

I want to be part of Your nameless, faceless army who is desperate for Your Glory alone. Help me to relinquish my rights, die to my reputation and just follow after You.

AMEN

Another Rainy Day

I am so loved.devol os ma I

To do, too doodoo, so just be

PRAY

LOVE

EAT

KCN

KIT...with the world

SING

WRITE
WRITE
WRITE

THINK-less

SEE-SEE-SEE

shhhhh-LISTEN

Must buy a new calendar

prepare for the fall = new school year, so many birthdays, the beginning of my last year in college =/eeeeek, new crazy apt, work, KCN auditions, retreat, hello-goodbyes, oct 13, 4 more months to finish what i started, and a few hundred more things to do.

fffphew~~

It has begun.
Can't stop thinking 'bout it.

pffftt

Exfoliat- : stripped from leaves

Uncomfortable and annoying.
ultimate 짜증...
i know I'm being a baby, i admit and
i am ashamed.

it seems i never have my way.
hate that i think that.




[deep breath]
*Oh, yeah just remembered Jesus and the Cross




"Question: What you study?"
"Next question: what will you do after graduate?"
"Okay, last question....


do you have boyfriend?"

Do you see?

Do you see my beloved?

Yes,
He's here in the garden.
He's always waiting there.
Let us run~

China knows

"In today's world, a country's culture and economy are inseparable. A government must pay more attention to culture and originality if it wants to improve the quality of economic development."
-http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-asia-pacific-10898582-

don't cloud in my sun

dreaming is
big
adventurous
scary and delicious

music is
alive
wild
beautiful and dangerous

art is
yours
mine
outrageous and delightful

can i really have it all?

a genuine hehe

Story of our lives

whoa there

I am finally freeeeeeee from SS (school stress)
SS really, really affects me.
How in the world did I work 23 hours a week AND deal with SS?
rawr.
I'm sorry, didn't mean to.

I want to laugh in the face of my insecurities.
'HA! I say, you have nothin' on me.'
Who cares anyway?
God loves me duh. but I care so much. dangit.

I am more perceptive than I think.
Drama, drama, yomama, hey hey.
Girl and girl are drama
Girl and boy are trauma
Boy and boy are yomama
No, sir I am not blind. I see you.

Recently my heart is like this big, but I want to fit THAAAAAAAT many in it.
and even though it seems like it won't fit...when I put it in, one by one
it fits.
"oh boy"


Why the random?


Good question

Good answers come from Good questions.
God is good.

The Notebook

In the quiet, deliciousness of a cool, Sunday morning,
I opened up my bible and read 1 Corinthians.
I re-read carefully Paul's exhortation for virgins, (that's me) to remain virgins because it was the "better" choice to make...
To wed, is not wrong, it is very "right", said Paul, but remaining a virgin would be...(gasp) BETTER than RIGHT.
phenomenal.

So, I meditated on that for a while, played some tunes on the keyboard, soaked in the afternoon sun....
and then decided to watch a movie.
I rummaged through my roommate's stack of dvds, and stumbled across a lovestory.
This lovestory I was told, was the best.
I was looked down upon for not having watched it or read it by my girlfriends, and even by some dudes...
so I decided to pop the dvd in, I mean how good could it possibly be?


Well, Mr. Sparks,
When it comes down to it,
I think I've already chosen the "right" way, rather than the "better".

Clive Staples Lewis

The Last Battle

Usually I start with the first, but this summer, I have started with the last.

Confession: I have a crush on the unicorn.

Facts:
God is God
You cannot serve in the name of God, what is evil.
You are serving God, if you do good, whether you know it or not.
There is eternity, and it's better than perfect, forever and ever and ever and ever.


P.S.
I am not crazy.

mumbojumbo

Don't know how to start really...
the year's been a blur, smudges here and there.
Salty tears and my watering mouth, have ruined the precious pages.
But, one thing is clear.

I need Jesus

yeah, I need Him in the mornings,
in the sleepy afternoons,
and in the wake of the chilly nights,
when I come alive.

I need Him in my conversations,
in family time,
I need Him in you.
Yes you,
you who show me love,
show me strength,
compassion,
my sister, my brother, my family, my friend,
you, who Know Jesus.
There's no point, without Him at the root, the cause, the beginning, and the end.

It's time to move forward.

I choose not to settle today.

Hi, I love my friends

killing me softly

Opinions here, Opinions there,
voice of God where?
Desire here, Dreams there,
Truth somewhere
what will be
must be greater than what
could've been
or else,
i shall fade away

It doesn't have to be a blind battle

An assignment in high school? not sure when/why

When I'm an old woman I shall drink tea in a fine china cup

with butter waffles and light chocolate on the side.

And I shall spend my money going on Jule Vern's 80-day trip around the world.

But perhaps I shall take twice as long.

I shall knit my grandkids matching sweaters and take them all snowboarding

I will beat them all of course unless

I suddenly catch arthritis.

You can

But now

But maybe I ought to

Hands

Hands

Small, gentle, firm, not too strong, yet not fragile
Every movement results in something beautiful
Each links together to paint a wave.
Sometimes smooth rolling on a legato
Sometimes crashing crescendo
Sometimes spraying white staccato
All the time moving in one motion,
In one rhythm,
In one melody,
For one purpose.
Small, yet able to stretch beyond what the eye perceives.
Stretching to reach the unreachable
One key to the next,
Crawling Up the treble
Down the base.
At times, the two will join in faith
Seeking in to the spiritual realm, for peace
Speaking to the King of Kings, Jehovah Shalom.
Other times, the right will work alone
With wood and graphite
With rubber and leather
With fork, knife, and spoon.
The other hardly works alone
Except only with steel worms biting deep into the flesh.
Pain flashes constantly and calluses fuse together
But these worms hypnotically forces to keep going.
One day, to receive the reward
Perhaps diamond, perhaps pearl
Seeking, yet not desperate
For timing is everything
And Jehovah Jireh, meets my every need.



27. January 2005
English class



What in the world was I thinking?

wander-ful

I like many things. I enjoy here and there. I see things you might not see. Or maybe I just think you don't. You probably see many that I don't.

I want to be here, as much as I want to be there.
There's excitement and energy and drama and purpose when I dream. Logic says stop dreaming.
But I can't help it, I dream and I dream.
I make no sense.
I crave something extraordinary
All I know is,
I need to speak truth into the world

Life

It's time to live.

Help!

Oh Motivation,
where art thou?